With God all things are possible.

I find this hard to understand. Samuel seems so normal-kicking in my belly. But he isn't. Lately I have been struggling with that thought. How it can seem so normal, yet be so abnormal. Again, that is one of those questions that I just have to stop trying to make sense of. I am actually really excited about our ultrasound next Friday. I will be happy to see Samuel-alive and moving around in my belly. I know that I may never meet him alive outside of the womb. Despite this, I still have this sliver of hope-that just maybe when they do the ultrasound he will have a brain and will be healed. I can hope for this, but not expect this. I believe that God can perform miracles today. It may not be his will for Samuel to be healed and to survive very long, but if it is I will be estactic. If it isn't-that is ok too. Again, I will just have to continue to remind myself of God's character and that He knows what is planned for our lives. It is all in the story He has written for our family. At the same time, I will not forget that the impossible is possible with God. Let us not forget that.