Merry Christmas my sweet Samuel!

This year has definitely been hard. I have to say that I feel so blessed that I was able have sweet Samuel at home last year for Christmas. But, I am so sad that I don't get to spend it with him this year. I miss my sweet baby so much, but rejoice that he is no longer suffering and that he is spending his days with Jesus! Speaking of, Happy Birthday Jesus! Dawson always makes things a little easier, I must say. Everytime we read the Christmas Story or he sees a picture of baby Jesus, Dawson says, "Baby Samuel". I try to correct him, but it almost just seems right. Samuel is with Jesus right now and it is almost as if we all got to see a bit of Jesus through the face of that sweet baby Samuel. It brings smiles to my heart. And again, although I am joyful with the season, I also find myself being angry and extremely heartbroken-all of which I know is normal. At the same time-I have so much to look forward to- another sweet gift from God. Dawson has given the new baby a name, "Jacob Samuel". (We aren't going with that name, but it is sweet anyway and we don't know if it is a boy or girl.)