Quilt Square

This is a Quilt Square I made for Organ Donor Alliance. They are putting all the squares together to make a quilt in memory of those who donated organs.

Missing you Sweet Samuel

Dear Samuel,

Today I was reminded of you and your amazing journey. You weren't suppose to make it, but you did. You surpassed all odds and graced us with your sweetness for 10 weeks. You were such a fighter and I miss you so much. Although I know that you are in heaven, rejoicing with Jesus, I still want to hold you. But I cling to the knowledge and truth that I will see you again. You have a little sister now. Her name is Sawyer. I see your face in her. It makes me smile and cry. I have often called her Samuel-to other people and when I talk to you. I miss you sweet boy. Thank you for being so strong. Thank you for teaching us so much about life in such a short amount of time. I love you baby.

She is Here!

Everyone we had our precious baby girl on March 10th at 7:25am. She was 6lb 9oz, 19 inches. Sawyer Hope Rowbotham. We are home now and doing well. She is nursing like a champ and has been a great sleeper. On Thursday she slept 5 hours doing the night. I actually woke her up to nurse her! Her demeanor is so chill and calm. I am recovering from my c-section slowly, but surely. Thank goodness my mom is here to help. She came to rescue us. I know each day I will slowly get better. I feel so much better that she is out now. I have relaxed and am feeling a little more normal.

Also, my brother and his wife are in Ethiopia right now. They have their baby boys. It is hard to talk with them, but they are doing well. They are trying to get sleep whenever the boys are sleeping. We are so eager to meet the little ones. What a blessing! We have been blessed with 3 little ones within 2 days. Thanks God!!

Wednesday, March 10th

We will be having our c-section on Wednesday, March 10th at 7am!!! Praise Jesus! We are so excited and eager to meet our new little one. Pray for the surgery, a healthy baby, a quick recovery, and that Dawson is excited.

A Light at the End of the Tunnel

Well, on Monday I go in for yet another appointment. The doctor's office is being my favorite place...not! But this MOnday may just be my favorite place. As long as my blood pressure is elevated, then my doctor will schedule me for a c-section that week. And well it has been elevated everytime, so I don't see why it wouldn't be. So, we will be having our baby next week. Just a little earlier than the 15th. Praise God! We are so excited and anxious. I can't wait to meet this baby. Please pray for guidance for a name...poor kiddo is nameless so far. Okay.

Oh and maybe we will have a male lactation consultant help us out.(Hopefully some of you will get this joke :))

Weekly Doctor Appt.

I had my doctor appt today and found out a few things:

1. I have bronchitis (yippee) and he gave me an antibiotic.
2. I have a yeast infection on my arm (sounds gross, just looks like a rough patch of skin, just fungal) and he gave me a script for that too.
3. I am 100% effaced and dilated at the size of a pinky. This means that my cervix is ripe and that I could go at anytime....literally. He doesn't expect me to last until the 15th, pretty positive.
4. My BP was really high (highest it has ever been), gained 5lbs (b/c I am retaining water), and am having edema (dimpling of skin, sign of retaining water). So, I have to go back to doctor on Wednesday. If things haven't improved, then he will go ahead and do c-section by Friday or early next week. YIkes.
5. I am now on strict bedrest, so I really can't do anything but lay here. My mom is changing her flight and coming out Wednesday. That will be helpful.


So, please pray this baby comes soon. We are ready, and even more ready now.

Getting Closer

Well, I can't believe it. Two weeks from Monday we will meet our little baby (unless she/he decides to come earlier). I have to say the last week has been miserable. I feel awful to being so negative, but man I feel like everything is just falling about. First off, Dawson had a terrible cough and that was no fun, then I got it (I swear twice as bad as he did). Then I am officially off my zoloft. I went off of it, to make sure that the baby doesn't go through withdrawl. I feel like a crazy person. Not to mention that my mom's heart results came back and her heart didn't improve with medicine...now she has to get a defibrillator. And then I am suppose to be only doing the "essentials". Ahhh. It has just been crazy emotionally for me. I know that it will get better, I just feel so overwhelmed. I know, I am just complaining.

But on a positive note. My brother and his sweet wife Katie are leaving March 10th to go to Ethiopia to pick up twin boys. Kaiden and Kamden. What a blessing! They were born October 30th, 2009.

It has been a long time.

I know it has been a long time since I have written. It has been a long road. It has officially been over 1 year since everything was happened. As much as I miss sweet Samuel, I am so thankful that he is free and with Jesus. His life served so many purposes, some of which people have shared. This year is going to be a good year. I have so much joy with the anticipation of our new little one arriving. March 21st is not far away! Not only do I have joy with our little one coming, but I am an aunt and will be an aunt again in March! Jeff's brother and wife had a little baby named Eli Samuel. And my brother and his wife will be adopting twin boys from Ethiopia (hopefully being able to go get them by March). So praise Jesus!

On another note...I miss needing God the way I needed Him before.