HOPE

I could never give up HOPE. HOPE is what drives me each day. HOPE has endless possibilities and endless dreams. HOPE is believing that the impossible is possible. HOPE is....

:) and :(

Just missing my precious baby today. But I smile because I know you are in the arms of Jesus.

Be Still and Know that HE IS GOD

Passage from Streams in the Desert by: L.B. Cowman (thanks Jenna!)

That is all God asks of you as His dear child. When you become weak through the fierce fires of affliction, do not try to "be strong." Just "be still, and know that [He is] God." And know that he will sustain you and bring you through the fire.

Be strong, He has not failed you

In all the past,

And will He go and leave you

To sink at last?

No, He said He will hide you

Beneath His wing;

And sweetly there in safety

You then may sing.

Precious thoughts from a 3 year old

Man, Dawson really knows how to make me smile and cry at the same time. On Monday night we were putting him to bed, doing our daily prayers and Dawson asks, "mommy, why did Jesus have to take Samuel". Whoa... nothing like taking me off guard. That was a hard question to answer and one I sometimes struggle with as well. But, I told Dawson that Jesus just needed Samuel. And that Samuel was only meant to be here on earth for a short amount of time and his job is done. Samuel's short lived touched many. I told him we may not understand everything, but that is ok, because he is with Jesus and one day we will see him again! Of course I don't know how much Dawson understood of that, but hopefully one day he will. So, then Dawson said, "I want another baby". That made me giggle. How sweet and innocent he is!

Restoration will come!

6 months old

On the 24th, Samuel would have been 6 months. I can only wonder what it would have been like. It makes me sad. Today, I am going to go for a drive just to think. I feel like since Samuel's birth and death I haven't had any time by myself to just think. Hopefully this will be a good thing, not a bad thing. I just need some time to process. Hopefully I will run into some pretty things on my journey today. Pray for safety as I drive aimlessly (with my GPS).

A Sad Day for Me, A Joyous Day for Others

Well, today we got a letter in the mail from Donor Alliance. It was a confirmation letter that Samuel's heart valves were used for 2 children. Little Samuel's life helped to save 2 other children. Praise Jesus! I am very happy for those children and their families, just sad that it confirms that Samuel is actually dead. My heart is breaking. After receiving the letter, I went upstairs with Dawson and looked at pictures of Samuel. I was sobbing and Dawson was saying, "it's ok sweetie, do you want to lay down sweetie?". He is really a sweet kid. After I calmed down, I have just been "here"-I am sure we all have had days like that, maybe for different reasons though.