Dancing with Jesus

Oh my sweet Samuel
I know you are dancing with Jesus
but how I miss your smiling face.
If only I could get a glimpse-
just a tiny slice of heaven.
I know you are better,
no more tubes, no more pain, finally freedom.
If only I could've held you a little longer,
but I rest assured knowing I'll see you again.
Oh my sweet Samuel

I want to Praise You, Lord, Every Season of MY soul

Let everything that,

everything that

Everything that

has breath praise the Lord

Praise You in the morning

Praise You in the evening

Praise You when I'm young

and when I'm old

Praise You whem I'm laughing

Praise You when I'm grieving

Praise You every

season of the soul

If we could see

how much You're worth

Your power,Your might,

Your endless love

Then surely we would

never cease to praise

Let everything that,

everything that

Everything that

has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,

everything that

Everything that

has breath praise the Lord

Praise You in the heavens

Join with the angels

Praising You forever and a day

Praise You on the earth now

Join with creation

Calling all the nations to Your praise

Praise You in the morning

Praise You in the eveningPraise

You when I'm young

and when I'm old

Praise You whem I'm laughing

Praise You when I'm grieving

Praise You every

season of the soul

If we could see

how much You're worth

Your power,Your might,

Your endless love

Then surely they would

never cease to praise

Let everything that,

everything that

Everything that

has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,

everything that

Everything that

has breath praise the Lord

Back in Good ole Colorado.

Well, we definitely had a wonderful trip in Cincy. I had a surprise b-day party for Jeff-boy was he shocked! I wish everyone could have see his face. There were probably about 60 family and friends. It was so great to see everyone. We keep very busy while in Cincy. We visited with a lot of people. I think everyone should move here. Colorado is so much prettier. Sorry Cincy.

We are still just hanging in there. I feel like our conversations about Samuel are less frequent, but Dawson still mentions Samuel at least once per day. Dawson prays for Samuel every night. If he only understood that Samuel is finally free and doesn't need our prayers. Samuel has had the ultimate prayer request met-meeting Jesus. Not to say that selfishly I want him back. I can still picture him in my head making his little adorable faces and smiling back at me. What a sweet, precious little boy. I miss him so much. It is still just so surreal that I had a baby, but now he is gone. The other day I was filling out paperwork and I had to put down the name of my children. Oh, my heart hurt really bad at that moment.

Ok. Well, that is just a quick update. Please pray for guidance in our lives now. I feel like I just don't know what to do with myself or what direction our family needs to go. Thank you all!

Here we come Cincy!

Dawson and I are off to Cincinnati this morning. Please pray for safe travels and especially a time of rejuvenation!

Blah.

Life is just plain sucking right now. I find it hard to be motivated to do anything. I miss Samuel so much. My heart just feels like it has been ripped out of my chest and still has yet to return. I feel like I am such a runt-it sucks. I know that this is part of the process of grieving and healing, but I hate it. I miss the joy in my life. I pray that the joy will be restored to my life. I want to be able to use this experience to glorify God, but am struggling to make it each day. I am not taking care of my body, my spirit, or my mind and therefore others (mainly Jeff and Dawson) are suffering for it. God, please help me!

Another week

Well, Dawson is doing better. He still has a cough, but he doesn't sound like a seal and he can breathe now. Hopefully the cough will go away soon. We will take him to the chiropractor tomorrow...maybe that will help.

This weekend we had a birthday party for Jeff. He turns 30 on Monday. Whoo hoo! It was a great time hanging out with friends and our colorado family (neighbors :) ). We had Skyline Chili (a cincinnati favorite). Yummy. Then afterwards we played Catchphrase. Good times. I have to say we needed a good night like that. Thanks everyone.

We got a seal in the house!

I am telling you all-if it is not one thing, it's another. So, last night, we almost had to take Dawson to the ER. He hasn't been feeling so good lately. But last night when he fell asleep, he sounded really raspy. At one point he woke up and started crying and was literally gasping for air. He was really having a hard time catching his breath. Then he threw-up. Anyway, we called the doctor on-call and she said it sounded like croup. Croup is a virus that affects the vocal chords and causes swelling in the airway. Yippee...just what we need. Well, she suggested calling sitting in a steam-filled bathroom and called in a steroid. Both of those things helped him get through the night. But, I am still taking him to the doctor today. I am not taking any risks. We have insurance and if they just tell me he is ok...then great. Just pray for a quick recovery. Blah. Slightly stressful.

And on another note. For the past couple days Dawson has been saying that he wanted to make something for Samuel (so sweet). Well, yesterday, we made an octopus made out of a glove and decorated it quite exotically. I will put up a picture soon. When Dawson is feeling better, we will take it to Samuel's grave.